38w3d - 1w4d to go (10 days to due date, 16 days to induction)

I'm still pregnant.

GET OUT OF ME BABY GIRL!

The contractions I had all last week have died off completely. I'm so disappointed. On Friday, they were so strong I was SURE I'd have a baby by the end of the weekend. Here it is, Monday at 12:02 a.m. and I'm still pregnant, zero contractions, sore, tired, cranky, having heartburn for the 100th day in a row, running the electric bill way up with the air conditioning (because I am ridiculously hot all the time, I miss the freedom to move about as I please, and I REALLY WANT THIS KID OUT OF ME.

I'm also as big as a friggin house. I stepped on the scale - I've gained 50 pounds. I'm eager for the kid to come out so I can start losing weight again. I want my body back, all for myself (except for breastfeeding of course).

Ugh. I'm off to go eat my weight in Tums so that maybe, just maybe I can get through the night without waking up and having my throat be on FIRE.

Here's hoping that THIS week will be the week. I know it will all be over for sure on June 2nd, but I really, really don't know how much more I can take. Here's hoping also that at least this week when I get the fun/uncomfortable/somewhat painful cervical check, I'll have at least made SOME progress so I don't have to be panicking that the induction won't take if we even make it that far.

The worst part of all this is just the constant worry - between my HBP and the amniotic fluid level being low (though low end of normal) I just worry that the more time she spends inside is just one more day that something could go wrong.

Funny how the first part of this pregnancy was so easy.

Goodnight.